Parting with Perfection

I am not perfect.

I am working to release my perfectionist tendencies.

I am recovering from the pursuit of perfection – whatever perfection actually is.

We live in a culture that awards us for being flawless and having it all together. Social media has idealized the picture perfect moments that may or may not be actually real or attainable. We strive to have our house, family, car, relationship, clothes, and even ideas look a certain way so that we can reinforce our perfectionism to everyone who is watching.

I mean who are we trying to convince here – ourselves or everyone else out there?

Lately, this endless chase for perfection has felt inauthentic and almost like a big lie because the real honest truth is – I do not have it all together.

I am a real human being behind this screen and these words that I am typing.

And as a human being – I am flawed.

I do not do everything correctly.

I make mistakes.

I have moments where I get stuck in my head and think of every little thing that could go wrong.

I have days where I wake up crying because of my health and wanting to be better.

I have days where I feel nothing is going my way and I want to be an ostrich and stick my head in the sand.

I have many moments of doubt, ugliness, discomfort, anger, rage, swearing, and self loathing.

I am sharing my secret with the world – I am not perfect and I have many, many flaws. So, why do I try to be this fake perfect person?

Why do I try to create a container that will fail to fit me?

Why do I want to impress everyone with the lie of having it all together?

Do I deceive myself so much to think that having it all together will be what others actually want to see and experience?

Perfection is the moving baseline that even if we actually reached it it wouldn’t be what we thought it was. But some of us are still in this rat race.

Instead of chasing the elusive idea of perfection, I’m striving to be real.

To be a raw, unedited, human being with flaws that make me, me.

I hope you join me in my journey to break the chains of perfectionism.

And maybe, just maybe, my realness will inspire you to loosen your perfection shackles that keep you from being the real imperfect you.

After all, we are in this together, so let’s be imperfect and celebrate, maybe even honor each other for it!

I can’t wait to see who I am and who you are when we can be our true selves.

TANCKS for reading!