Two Years

Certain milestones in our life are celebrated and reminisced annually – birthdays, wedding anniversaries, birth of a child, getting a new job, purchasing a new home, or being illness free.

At this time two years ago, I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.

This was not something we could have ever anticipated as no one in my family has MS, and the first time we would ever hear the words “Multiple Sclerosis” uttered in a doctors office was just one month prior to my diagnosis.

My diagnosis came at a less than ideal time, as most life altering events do. My husband and I were newly married as of August 2016 and purchased our first home together in December 2016.

We would never have expected the first memories made in our home and as a family to involve so many doctors appointments, tests, tears, and fear of the unknown.

Our lives were flipped upside down due to my diagnosis – twenty-three years young and given an incurable autoimmune disorder that could take away my sense of feeling and mobility.

To this day, a large sense of loss still overwhelms me as we grieve the death of life as it was prior to my diagnosis.

What we once knew and were comfortable and content with will never be again. We cannot go back to life as it was before my Multiple Sclerosis.

Obstacles in your life are placed at exactly the right moment, whether we accept them or not.

Receiving this diagnosis would not be labeled as a “blessing” within the first year per my experience. For many, it is never seen as a blessing as it takes so much from them. Everyone living with MS is on their own, unique path, and I pray they find peace in their mind, body, spirit, and soul.

It has taken me a lot of internal work to get to the point to see my diagnosis as a good thing, and this view might change in the future, but for now, I am consciously choosing to see my Multiple Sclerosis as a blessing from God.

From January 2017 to January 2019 so much has shifted.

I have become more myself than ever before – viewing life and everything within it as a miracle.

It is no surprise that God has blessed my husband and I with a soon-to-be son that is due in a few weeks.

Multiple Sclerosis represented the death of part of me to create space for the rebirth of who I was created to be.

Now we prepare for the birth of our first son, but as we deliver him, another new part of me will also be born – becoming a mother.

Life gives us countless opportunities to be reborn and step into the being God has designed us to be.

We can fully embrace these privileges, or we can stay stagnant and choose to be rooted in the known – the choice is always yours.

Believe that life is happening for you, not against you.

You are a miracle and too special to stay stuck in the mundane.

Don’t wait for a diagnosis to cause your awakening – open your eyes and seize the life that lies right before you.

Thank you so much for reading.

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